Judge me if you want, but I’m not very family oriented. I never have been. I don’t connect well with people and that might have something to do with it. I also belive my dad has Aspergers, so technically its not his fault. We both lack that trait. You know how they say “opposites attract ? Well, my father and I are quite similar, so in that case, we are the same and therefore lack a close relationship. He doesn’t expect anything on Fathers Day, and I have no interest in giving him anything. I only called because it’s what most people do.
My family knows I’m closed off from my feelings. They know not to to expect much from me. Except my mother. We both lack the feelings, but she expects things for birthdays, Christmas and mothers day. For some reason she feels like she should get mother of the year award for how my sister and I turned out, but truth is she didn’t do anything. She was there, but never really there. Try telling her that and she will deny it.
Well, when it comes down to it, I don’t really care to have children of my own. I already don’t feel like I’ll ever find anyone, but if I were to, I would say whatever happens. I don’t care to have one, but if I were to, I wouldn’t be mad or anything. The only holiday I ever really cared about is my birthday. Always made sure I had it off. I don’t want anything, maybe half of a cake and for you to just remember.
*sigh* I don’t ask for much. Maybe things would change as things change in my life, but for now, that’s how I feel.