Does anyone else do this?
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen each episode of my favourite Tv Shows. I’ll watch it live, then when it’s available, I download it and watch it again to catch any small details I may have missed during the first watch. Then any other time I watch it, It’s more like I’m studying it. I’ll watch my favourite parts, but I’ll also watch the actors and study their acting. Sometimes, I’ll have a random memory of a line and have to watch it to get closure. But I enjoy it so much, I end up re-watching the entire episode yet again.
To me, I’ve always been like this. If I really like something, I can watch it 1000 times and never get tired of it. I want to take it all in all the time. My problem is my sister. I’m currently unemployed, and she just keeps telling me to “stop it”. She says “You’re basically watching other people work while you’re wasting your time”. Which isn’t completely untrue, but I don’t know how to articulate to her that I can’t help it. And even if I were to tell her that, she’d tell me that’s a stupid excuse. She forbade me to download the last episode of the show I watch, but kept the recording on the tv. Said if I wanted to watch it again, it’s there. When I asked her today if she was okay with me downloading it now (it’s been 5 days after it aired) she said “No. Why? You’ve seen it twice already. You don’t need to see it again. Put all that energy/passion into something else”. But the problem is, I can’t force myself to put energy into something that I don’t care about. And sadly enough, I don’t care enough about getting a job. So I’m not trying all that hard. Which I do feel upset about because I’ve been unemployed for two years now.
Anyways, I really don’t know why I do this. But I’d like to know if there is anyone else out there with the same issue of watching things repeatedly. Also, if someone who could help me understand why I do this.